Yesterday, I saw my first humming bird since late fall. These tenacious 4” commuters fly between Mexico and Idaho, over 1,100 miles, twice a year. They are on a serious mission to propagate the hummingbird race. Fortunately, nectar filled bottles hung from the awning on our back porch when the hungry birds arrived.
I am also on a serious mission. My mission is to propagate a readership with tales that satisfy or, as Dave Lakhani, author of Learn to Sell When Nobody’s Buying says, “shift their reality.” I want to write stories that engage readers so thoroughly that they return like hummingbirds to a feeder.
What I need to accomplish my mission is simple: a mere thousand, or so, hits to my social media pages: website, blog, Facebook, and Twitter. Like me, love me, hit me. Help me get published! Help me propagate stories that temporarily or permanently shift your reality. Help me to accomplish what seems impossible.
Visit David Lakhani at http://www.boldapproach.com/
Today, the “boss” asked me into his office and I knew immediately that it wasn’t good. And it wasn’t. At least it is not good at this moment. I didn’t pass my probationary period on my new job. For the last couple of months, I have been feeling competent and confident about my job. But from the beginning there has also been a sense of being on the outside, exclusion from the personal chats and laughter around the office, not accepted, blatantly ignored.
And so, I begin a new adventure.
For some reason, the “rejection” I got yesterday hit me unlike most others.
Perhaps it was the wording, “We can’t do anything for you.”
Those words sound terminal, as if I had sent them a disease instead of a promotion plan and they really meant, “If we can’t do anything for you, nobody can.” Then they encouraged me to try self-publishing to “test the market.”
I’m not saying they had a bad idea—I have already decided to look into ebook publishing, not simply to “test the market,” but to build a following. I’m saying that my confidence took a hit. I questioned myself and my writing. Is the book good enough? Am I a potentially good writer or a good writer? Am I a good writer, but not good enough? Yaada Yaada Yaada.
All you writers out there have experienced or will experience doubt in their writing abilities.
There is always room to grow as a writer. And there is always some way to recalibrate one’s perspective. And there is always the opportunity to discuss doubts with God. That’s what I did. I talked to the God of the Universe yesterday.
“I could sure use something to renew my spirit, brighten my vision, and fuse my passion, as a writer, Lord. I’ve been sure for years that you have been well pleased with what I’m writing, but now I’m wondering. If you’re not pleased with my writing efforts, please show me. Though, I would sure feel good if you gave me something to encourage me to keep on writing. “
Then I proceeded to write an email to Kim Barnes, an amazing Idaho author whom I regard as one of my mentors in ways. Her writing is the bar.
AND Kim wrote back!