From a baby who didn’t smile for six months, to a kid who entered a Gentile home, to a Jewish adult who chose Jesus as the fulfillment of her faith,Tracy never quite fit in with her peers. As a young Christian, Tracy searched for a community where she could fit in as a Christ follower. In the first years, her search led to an African American church where the “saints” nurtured her as a prodigal daughter returning home, a group posing as Christians who turned out to be a front for the Unification Church founded by Reverend Sun Myung Moon, and a spiritually vibrant mega church in Seattle that became notorious in the mid1980s for a practice called “Spiritual Connections.”
Spiritual Connections was a form of “worship” where members danced with partners to whom they were not married. The result was a rash of emotional and sexual affairs, adultery, nervous breakdowns, divorces, lawsuits, several suicides, and one murder. After Tracy escaped, she attended a church in Boise for 19 years where, during the last six of these years, she encountered a personality-driven pastor who seemed more concerned with his own glory than the spiritual needs of his members. In these organizations, powerful autocratic leaders used mind control to pressure members to disconnect from their families, nonconforming friends, and their individuality.
Though Tracy’s journey thrust her into some significantly unbalanced religious experiences, she learned to surrender her unhealthy relationship with church, give and accept forgiveness, and become vulnerable and honest in relationship. She eventually finds freedom from condemnation and the courage, to be one-of-a-kind authentic.